Rosebud

I’ve never really felt the need to be someone other than myself

I know I need to loose weight and get more in shape, but i’m so happy at work it’s unreal. I’m wearing shorts EVERYDAY (bar two) to work and showing off my legs. I feel so happy that I don’t care about how my body looks at work, I feel comfortable and even though I know I am fat and I do need to change, it’s now not a priority.

However I’m going to start getting back into my gym trips, mainly as I really enjoy them and I see them as more of stress/emotional relief. I’m at my lowest weight in a Year, and i’m putting it down to the amount of activity I do at work. It’s sort of unseen exercise which must be making a difference as i’ve lost weight.

I’ve also seen a holiday in Kos 4* all inclusive for an amazing £256. I’m seriously tempted to book it and go. Even if it’s alone, I can afford to now and I enjoy my own company, sounds like I love myself but Fuck it. I’m amazing…. (NOT!)

haha anyway yer,

I’ve never really felt the need to be someone other than myself.

I’m Mairead Burke, The weird happy funny fat one.

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Im not really happy but I don’t think my mums happy either, and when my mums sad I couldn’t give a shit about me, I just want her happy

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The moment when you fall from your day’s high.

Your gut drops and tears start to roll.

But you can’t let anyone know as they worry about you.

When all you want to do is worry about others and fuck yourself’s emotions.

When your tears fall so fast you can’t see straight.

Your jaw starts to ache.

Breathing becomes hard and all falls silent

until the squeaks and squals of your beating heart and lungs begs for air.

That is crying.